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Spoken Word Poetry

🚨Content Note: trauma, sexual assault, self-harm, rage, transformative therapy moments + experiences & opinions of one autistic voice… 71.

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  1. Foreward

Foreward
  1. Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head

every clock is a handgun pointed at my head

2. The Body Abides

The Body Abides
  1. Dancing Close to the Edge of the Noise

A figure in protective gear sits at a desk facing multiple glowing monitors stacked chaotically above them. The monitors are connected by tangled cables, creating a wall of screens. The image has a soft, teal-tinted monochromatic palette. Style: Dystopian sci-fi digital art with atmospheric depth-of-field effects. Themes: Information overload, sensory processing challenges, the struggle to filter and process multiple inputs simultaneously - resonating with the AuDHD experience of trying to manage overwhelming streams of information while maintaining focus.
Dancing Close to the Edge of the Noise
  1. {The Mom in the Gray Flannel Skirt}

  2. That Song I’ll Never Sing to My Son

A man walks holding a young boy's hand. In monochromatic blue-grey. Scratchy, pen and chalk on drawing paper. Digital image by author. Digital tools included AI.
That Song I’ll Never Sing to My Son
  1. My Friend Billy

    A black and white photograph shows a lone figure in cowboy attire viewed from behind, contemplating a dramatic Arizona desert landscape. A towering mesa formation dominates the center, framed by saguaro cacti and storm clouds. The stark monochromatic treatment and solitary stance capture themes of isolation and memory from "My Friend Billy," while the desert setting connects to the poem's Arizona references.
    My Friend Billy
  2. After the Secret

    After the Secret
  3. sneaking your mother’s creepy g-d on high

    Digital art banner in dark purple and blue tones. Left: A solitary figure stands in a snowy field beneath a dramatic sky where a twin-tailed comet blazes, its purple-white trails illuminating turbulent clouds. Right: A shadowy scene shows a child bowed head in lap atop what appears to be stone religious architecture, rendered in monochromatic grays. The composition juxtaposes active seeking with feelings of abandonment, echoing the poem's exploration of religious doubt, family expectations, and personal autonomy. Style combines dramatic celestial lighting with minimalist figure work, creating an atmosphere of spiritual questioning.
    sneaking your mother’s creepy g-d on high

    9. {tbd}

    10. Believe I’ll Ch-Ch-Change My Shirt

    A zombie musician in striped prison garb plays guitar against a surreal landscape. The vibrant expressionist style features electric blues, blazing reds, and deep purples. Background elements include shadowy figures in a red house, a distant dog, and figures in boats on flowing water. The decorated guitar features skulls and roses. The composition evokes themes of confinement, performance, and isolation while the psychedelic colors suggest both intensity and despair - reflecting the poem's exploration of burnout and forced transformation.
    Believe I’ll Ch-Ch-Change My Shirt

    11. Shameless

    Digital painting of Bad Water, Death Valley: A dark reflective pool mirrors rugged mountains beneath a pastel sky. Golden desert sand and scrub brush frame the water. A simple warning sign reads "Bad Water." The painterly style evokes both anime backgrounds and American Southwest art. The mirror-like pool and stark landscape echo the poem's themes of reflection, isolation, and finding beauty in desolation - a visual metaphor for the journey from shame to shamelessness.
    Shameless

    12. Slouching toward Montauk

    Slouching toward Montauk

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