7 Autistic Decades. I'm Still Driven. What If I NEVER Get “There...”?

Neurodiversity? Pop culture tries… and fails. But text, performance & images give my raw autistic reality…

Feb 11 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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Autistic in a Sea of Faceless Ghosts… I Still Want to Remember You

I can’t see faces. Not even my wife’s. But it means something to me to remember your name.

Feb 4 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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Hot Thought for My Subscribers

This is as real as I get. I want to share a seed...

Feb 3 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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Autistic in My 70s, Still Driven. What If I NEVER Get “There"...?

Still driven to matter. Desperately. Almost 73 & I can’t unwind… busted springs, broken dancer in a jewel box. A work in progress. I think it may…

Feb 1 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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January 2026

This Autistic Elder Looks Back… without Shame

Family, careers, homes… this neurodivergent badass walks away.

Jan 26 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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On Autistic Burnout: "Believe I'll Ch-Ch-Change... My Shirt"

Burnout ain't a bad week. It's a presence... that curls up beside you. Then, won't let go.

Jan 16 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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"every clock is a handgun pointed at my head"

Spoken Word... director's cut.

Jan 14 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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December 2025

Autistic Elder on this Moment...? “Slouching toward Montauk”

My grandfather was a… complex man. He slept beside an orderly nightstand. Tucking Mein Kampf tight, In its tidy drawer every night. And…

Dec 31, 2025 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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Accomodated. Not Fixed.

Merry Freaking auDHD New Year.

Dec 31, 2025 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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Friends, Grief & Autism…? They say we have no feelings…

They say autistics don’t have emotions. Don’t make friends. Clue, I ain’t Spock.

Dec 6, 2025 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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November 2025

"Bardo #1"... The digital ghost of an illustration

Committing to paper feels like a betrayal

Nov 29, 2025 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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Family, School, Work? They created this autistic bad@$$.

I wasn’t born under a star named Rage.

Nov 24, 2025 • Johnny Profane (Knapp Âû)

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