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START HERE: All the Hits... Cult Faves... & a few Golden Oldies from Autistic AF Out Loud.
What you’ll find here: A quick start guide to the autistic experience. As it’s actually lived.
I always mean my posts to be timely. But there’s a timeless aspect to neurodivergent experience, too.
Like an audiobook, my podcasts & blogs about lived autistic experience keep grabbing new readers. Years after their publish date.
Here are my besties. Humbly submitted. Like your typical Twilight Zone episode…
Start anywhere that grabs you.
Rediscovering joy... buried since childhood. After decades masking, recovering authenticity. My gritty path through darkness toward light. Click for spoken word podcast. Click for full spoken word poem, “Slouching toward Montauk.
Strength isn't absence of weakness. It's persistence despite it. Not glorifying misery... no toxic positivity. Still honoring the struggle to survive. Click for spoken word podcast.
Uninterrupted moments—no anxiety, silence, focused attention. Breaking unspoken rules. Every tiny step grows my autistic joy after decades of masking. Click for spoken word podcast.
Autistic home design ain't about who's neatest. It's about my survival. Fewest decisions. Greatest visibility. And predictable spaces that conserve energy... for actually living my life. Video & transcript.
Public education treats children like assembly-line widgets. For neurodivergent kids, it's torture—sensory overload, rigid schedules, forced compliance. Let’s free them.
My skills phase in and out like quantum particles. Autistic variable ability—unpredictable superpowers that vanish when needed most—wrecking careers, relationships, commitments. Included in the podcast, “Authentic Autistic Life: 4 Short Stories Fearless, Joyful and Chaotic.”
Social groups multiply processing demands exponentially. Each new person doubles my communication struggle. Status dynamics, secret handshakes, and subtle hierarchies create pain not worth the cost. Click for spoken word podcast.
Yes, I have self-destructive thoughts. Weekly. AND this is the best time of my life." Medical tests can't measure what matters. My autistic joy after 70 years... surviving. Click for spoken word podcast.
Psychedelics didn't "cure" my autism. They let me glimpse the self under the noise. Less social anxiety, minimal recovery time, clear communication. Anxiety effects make microdoses unsustainable for me. But occasional doses bring gifts worth the risks... your mileage may differ.
A year since police shot 13-year-old Linden Cameron. For having a meltdown. Nothing's changed. My autism? Still makes me a target. "High-functioning" may mean we can handle a conversation. But no way we handle a crisis. Autistic people don't need ID bracelets. We need cops to stop shooting us. Click for spoken word podcast.
Remember Black Lives Matter demonstrations? The toppled statues? My rational mind told my wife, "Statues are just objects." Now, my emotional side has its own mind. Processing in its own time. For me, objects hold magic, history, even awareness. Yet, my Black grandchildren matter more than any statue's magic...
Autistic time is different. Modern 9-to-5? Triggers my panic. But my passionate projects flow in a joyful, timeless state. Cuz my mind measures joy per minute. Not widgets produced per hour. Now, the Māori? They get it. We're Takiwātanga... in our own time & space. Podcast, transcript & images. “Every Clock Is a Handgun Pointed at My Head” was published in the Winter 2024-2025 issue of Wordgathering, a prestigious journal promoting the works of disabled artists.
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