Autism, ADHD, Misdiagnosed Bipolarity... & 1 Neurodivergent Life
Cuz burnouts erase more than 70 years of knowledge & experience
I just want to put this out there. My autistic experience. Maybe no one else's.
For awhile? I was misdiagnosed bipolar II. Which led to unfortunate meds… and side effects. Permanent.
See… I tested with a gifted IQ. But because of my spiky cognitive profile? I definitely perform at a subnormal level.
Here’s the deal…
During periods of clarity, I can indeed do some things that amaze me. I founded and ran an award-winning magazine at 30.
But when I was young, I could typically be “brilliant” for 3 to 6 months before I crashed. Definitely NOT your typical bipolar profile.
But they handed me lithium, depakote, carbamazepine, one desperate toxic substance after another. Til I walked… ticcing, blurting obscenities, and dragging one foot… away.
Truth? As far as I choose to believe?
I’m bright. In the right environment. Which will never include a desk, cubicle, and clever coffee cup.
Cuz burnouts erase more than 70 years of knowledge and experience.
Every time. Since 2nd grade. If degrading memory… and cognition… serves.
My understanding. Of my memory.
I live in awe of folks who live with bipolarity AND autism. This is no reflection on your struggles.
Please bear in mind. Just the lived experience of one old...
#ActuallyAutistic
I’m eager to hear about yours if you comment.
#ADHD #Bipolar
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Nope. Never did sue. My life was one desperate emergency after another back then. Never had the energy. Dunno if it would still be viable case
Even when I ran my magazine in the 80s I didn't fit well in a cubicle...
Did you ever sue over the misdiagnosis and damaging incorrect medications? It certainly did you substantial material harm. Probably too late now, but it might still be worth looking into a bit.
I'm not neurodivergent (as far as I know), but I've always found the "desk, cubicle, and clever coffee cup" environment stultifying and depressing. They may have created the perfect universal mind-deadening environment.