Accomodated. Not Fixed.

Merry Freaking auDHD New Year.

I’m not an imposter. I’m an impersonator. Slowly disrobing.

I’m struggling to finish a good video. Cuz I tend toward procrastination thru chasing every new app… that’ll make production… 3X faster!

Then crash, burn, and flip out. Racing around that old deathtrap, Learning Curve. Maybe that video… tomorrow…

My personal autistic+ADHD brain appears to crave the energy & focus of emergency.

So my answer to any “should I risk it...?” Always…

“Just this time. Cuz {feel-in-the-blank urgency}.”

Spent a couple-a-three startups into the ground. Cuz I could know that shiny new purchase was unwise... “But it’s a { fill-in-the-blank fig leaf}.”

Systems and methods don’t fix my level of impulsivity. Sigh. 7 decades of bullshit bulletpoint lists…?

Better accommodated than fixed.

Every single, fucking, useful-in-the-right-context character trait… of my auDHD being. Better accommodated than fixed.

There just aren’t ANY 7 Easy Habits of Successful auDHDers books to be written. Says this grumpy old autist.

So I’m focusing on the sheer joy of audio engineering, minimalist video production, and bathing in specification details of getting this next piece as good as I possess. New Year’s Eve. Maybe I check out that app… tomorrow.

Accommodated. Nurtured.

Not fixed.

Ya dig?

I’m not an imposter. I’m an impersonator.

Slowly disrobing.